New Life, New Site---a new way of thinking–on its way!---

Thursday, I was not expecting that after a day’s work I would encounter one shocking revelation. Monday, I was feeling dizzy not to mention my head hurts! I never imagined that after a couple of minutes on the fone, I felt a sore in my throat, not that it’s just a mere sore…it really hurts. I decided to have it checked and immediately the nurse told me to rest or else i might loose “it”. I took it for granted and told her that I may just need a medicine to soothe my aching throat. What she really mean was I may loose my voice. I went on… took the hell calls and though it bothered my a lot, I kept on. Lunch came and I have decided to take easy now that my throat was throbbing so bad that everytime I swallow… it hurts. I went half day at work. Decided to rest a while. I was thinking it would be ok, after all t’was just a mere sore throat. Been in this kind of situation a lot of times. Tuesday came, I was thinking It’ll be better since ill be able to rest. Well, t’was one hell of a day. I was supposed to rest get a well deserved sleep but to no avail. I was just lying in my bed, pretending to sleep. But no matter how I force my eyes closed. Sleep wont come. ***sigh*** t’was really frustrating. Well, 5pm came and I decided to make a Whole Day Rest. Sleep came to me at last - t’was 10pm already. Wednesday morning came, I was thinking that everything would turn out alright. Half of it was ok. Decided to rest again. Well, sore throat was lil bit gone now. Though, everytime I swallow something’s in my throat. Wednesday night, Work Again! took calls… talk, talk and talk again. I was thinking t’was ok. In fact, i feel comfortable already. Thursday, after a satisfying breakfast, we accompanied a friend to have her throat checked. Well, I was thinking to go home directly after breakfast but a part of me says that I need to accompany her as well. Felt like an invisible string pulls me. We came to the clinic after a long walk. Exhausted. Sweaty. Another friend told me to have my throat checked too but I declined - at first. I was thinking - “what a waste of both time and money”. Apparently, most of friends told me now that there’s nothing to loose… well, ha! there is - Money. After a couple of minutes of persuasion, I gave in.2 Waited for my Turn be checked. Finallly, after a grueling Hour and a Half. T’was my turn… the doctor asked so many questions that my head started to spin just by merely recalling some vague details. He had me openned my mouth, checked my ears too, he pulled my Tongue and let me utter some words. He inserted a **thing** into my mouth - felt like vomiting. In my head, i was thinking… what a waste for my breakfast! i mustered all the courage not to let it out. I won. As I was looking into my Doc’s Face, he seemed to be looking at something… his face turned serious. “There’s something in your ***** (actually I dont remember the word he was referring!), You’re vocal chords are swollen red, and dry…” and he let me wash my hands and he let my finger feel something… I coughed.. it’s normal. I felt something that’s potruding! My heart raced. The Doctor then said..”You have to rest, complete rest”. “What do you mean?” I said… He told me that I need to have a Complete Voice rest… “You need to have a Week’s rest to make sure the lump wont swell that much” he told me….I asked him… what’s w/ the lump? Well, he just told me that it’d ok and that rest is needed to heal the lump. He assured that It’s normal, most of which are actually common for Teachers.. so I concluded that this seems to be a problem with talking a lot. WTF. I dont have to talk for at least One Week? Can you just imagine that? But my Brain was still on the lump. I was afraid what comes next? He scribbled some notes, t’was a Medical Certificate, Medicines to take and as well as Foods to avoid! I went out of the Clinic, dumbstruck! I dont know what to do! Words wont come out of my mouth anymore. Struck - would be the better word to describe my situation. As I got out of that Small Clinic…. everything seems to be swirling! My head hurts. I cant imagine that Im getting sick all of a sudden. My head hurts, as in really hurts. Everytime I do something, it aches to a point that I get to regurgitate what I’ve eaten. I cant breathe properly due to my cough. I feel like flying - I mean Floating. My ears keep ringing. I know this is one of the Side effects when too much meds are taken all at the same time. I know I’ll be Fine… God will help me. I just gotta have Faith….. and…. I was wonderin’ what’s next in store for me?